What is this feeling that comes in between wakefulness and sleepiness when you are try to get things done? I'm not energetic yet I am not sleepy. My eyes are really wide yet it's weird when I try to close them...A mystery......

I should be able to do whatever I want on my 18th Birthday right? But I won't be able to cuz I have to do my Thesis Gallery Showing on the 15th of May... on my freaking birthday. I won't be at my home school, I will be at the Career Center standing practically all day from 9am to 7pm... it doesn't seem fair to me, oh cruel fate... At least my family and boyfriend will come see me.

But the next day will be so fun! My sister amber and her friends will be taking me to Club Necto in Ann Arbor! Wooooo!!! That will be so much fun! If only Chad could come too.... I hope my car will be fixed by then. At the same time, several problems arose in it:
1. My brakes are shot
2. My tire has an air leak in it somewhere
3. It needs new plugs
4. My right blinker is about to die
5. My brights won't stay on, so I have to hold the lever in to use them
6. I needed new tabs or plates or whatever you call them

My parents said that they'd fix it for me for my birthday ^_^ How nice!

I can't wait for my birthday! ^_^ despite the grueling torture of standing on my feet all day.

I need constructive criticism on my bottle and marble photography- My Thesis gallery is coming up and I want more feedback on them.
These are the photos I submitted on here that I need critiqued:

-My Fave Colors
-Shelled Marble
-Orange and Green
-Retro Squirt
-Retro Squirt II
-Retro Dew

Thank you

* Please note that this poem is like a year old and I don't feel this way anymore, but I still think it's a great poem.... even though it does sound VERY emo to me now.....Thank you ::*

I'm waiting in the silence,
but the phone doesn't ring.
Emotion wells up inside me,
making my eyes sting.

No one says hi anymore,
it's like no one notices me.
Living is such a bore,
my vision's getting blurry.

I never go anywhere,
there's no one to hear,
no one to care,
I shed a tear.

I always wonder, where can I go?
I swear I've reached an all time low.
I always ask why, oh why?
Oh dear God, don't let me cry.

I feel so alone, so left out.
I feel so depressed & angry I wanna shout.
My brain throbs
in between throbs

I silently beg you not to leave,
so I won't have another moment to grieve.
I stare at my room, eyes bloodshot.
Will I ever leave here? I think not.

I never trusted the word of any guy so wholeheartedly,
did I believe them when they said those three words? Hardly!
I raised my heart up high so none of them could get it,
so sure was I that no one would,
I didn't notice that up to the plate you stood,
& wore my guard down with your charm & wit.
Drawing me in, like the ocean to the moon,
my heart pounding in a most irregular tune.
So very long I hoped and waited,
that the very word I longed to hear, I hated.
So that when you said that same line,
I realized how much I wanted you to be mine.
Before I knew it, we were going out,
touching lips & holding hands,
telling each other what we're all about,
hanging with friends & singing to favorite bands.
Now here we are together,
love so pure, it's beyond all measure.
The words now ring so true,
when we say 'I Love You.'